Yesterday

Yesterday was my last pregnancy appt. Since Dr. Savage was just getting back from her vacation, I met with the nurse practioner, as the dr's schedule was just WAY too full. I was the same as last week. We are all set up for friday. Can't wait to get the call thursday night of what time I should go into the hospital. Mom arrives tomorrow:) 1/2 day today, full day tomorrow, and 1/2 day friday til I'll be snuggling a new little one. Ahh... it's simply heaven thinking about it. In the mean time, my hospital bag packed ;) and daddy took me to Motherhood Maternity last night to get a few last minute nursing essentials. Life is perfect.

Did you see?

Did you see the baby ticker at the side? Yep, it says 4 days! 4 days people! Ahh... I can't wait to snuggle my precious gift from a heaven. A pure miracle this little guy is. Love him so much already.  In the mean time to keep me busy, Tuesday I have my last ob appt and then taking Lexi to story time. Wednesday, I signed the kiddos up for the halloween party at the library. Thursday, Mom is coming and the furnance is getting a tune up (thank you landlords, seriously we've NEVER had better landlords than the one's we have now) thursday night they'll call us and tell us what time to come up, and friday is the big day! 4 days! 4 days!!

7 days, a week, 7 days

A week, 7 days, or a week.. However you want to put it.. But 7 days from now, I'll be in LABOR and getting ready to hold my sweet baby. I'm slightly a bit nervous as it's been  ALONG time since I've had to wake up in the night (LExi slept through the night at 3 weeks old...yah, I got lucky with her), it's been a good 2 years since I've changed a diaper, and I NEVER carry a diaper bag.. But I'm excited and so grateful for the opportunity to be this little one's mama. So if that means-- waking up at night, changing diapers, and carrying a diaper bag-- sign me up:). In the mean time, I'm still waiting for my 'nesting' phase to kick in... I just find myself enjoying the time with the other 3 and daydreaming about you-- and just how I want my 'birthplan' to go. My last dr's appt is tuesday. Dr. Savage will have JUST gotten back into town, so since her schedule is full-- I'll be meeting with her P.A. Life is good. Life is great. :)

Oh Landon....

By the looks of things I must be getting pretty close to my due date... as Landon was eating breakfast and looked up at me, and said "Mom you are getting as BIG as a HAMBURGER with ALL the toppings. (shakes his head) Yep, Yep, as BIG as a HAMBURGER.... (pause) with all the toppings." He then continues to eat his breakfast.. Oh that kid. He makes me laugh ;). Until next friday, I think I just might be looking at hamburger's differently, knowing they are my twin;). LOL.

False Alarm

5:30 I woke up to go to the bathroom, as I laid back down in bed.. a GUSH. What the? I thought to myself I just went to the bathroom... Jared woke up. We were both sure  my water had broke. But no contractions.. So I decided to go with it, as I had an appt at 9am with Dr. Savage. She listens to baby-- he sounds good, she checks me, and I've progressed to 3cm. She does the test, and it comes back positive. It was indeed amniotic fluid. She sends me straight to the hospital.

I get over there, wait a few minutes and they take me back to the room. 3 different tests were done.. All coming back negative.. By this time it's 11;00ish. WE call Mark and have him take Lexi and head to our house so that someone can be there when Landon gets home. They also do an ultrasound to make sure baby has enough fluid, and he does. Dr. Savage and the nurses, along with JAred, confirm I must have had a forebag this time. A bag, before the 'real bag'. SAdly the 'real bag' didn't break and because all tests came back negative-- there wasn't reason to induce, and we found ourselves checking out of the hospital, and heading home. No baby. False alarm. I'd be lying if I didn't admit I'm crying inside a little-- for just a couple of reasons. I've only EVER been induced and oh-how- I would love to go by myself. But with being the wife of a doctor, it's not easy for him to just get up and leave work (his patients don't like that for some reason?!) so we have always planned inductions. I as so excited at the thought of holding mysweet baby today. It took us so long to get pregnant, then to miscarry, then to get pregnant again.... WE just feel so blessed to have this little one joining our family. And after today, I'm just so nervous that something will go wrong this week. I just worry that something may have been missed. So I will continue to just make sure and be aware of his movements, and pray for this sweet boy. I think I'm going to have J give me a blessing. I feel a little bit 'train-wrecked'.... Anyways if nothing great happens this week. I go in on tuesday for my last appt, and my induction will be the 19th. I pray all goes well these next 11 days....

yesterday's dr. visit

Yesterday I had a dr's appt with Dr. Savage-- everything stayed the same :(. I was hoping I might have progressed more... and she'd say 'let's just induce you today.' But, no :(  Just have to remind myself that  a healthy baby is more important. We'll just let him 'cook' a little longer.  Life is good :)

Lying to myself

Yesterday, I was super tired. I woke up about 8, made everyone a yummy breakfast-- and then was ready for a nap. My Sweet Jared sent me back to bed. I slept until 11:30. But I woke up, with the 'pregnancy emotions' going on... I think when you know the month you are due finally arrives, you just want to be holding a baby already :). Knowing I have 18days to go (even though I know isn't a long time) is a long way to go for a pregnant lady..... My prego emotions are kind of taking over. It's weird how when you are pregnant, you pray for pain... for pain means the end is in sight. I've been waking up 3 to 4 times a night to go to the bathroom, unlike my other pregnancies where I slept wonderfully. This kid is also quite the accrobat, seriously... I wake up and my insides are sore. I think I have a night owl on my hands;). I'm so grateful for him, but i'm also ready to be holding him in my arms, not carrying him in my belly ;). Seriously, I think he'll be my biggest baby yet, he feels HUGE in there, and I have all kinds of new 'baby tattoos' (stretch marks.. lol.) Sigh... 18days, 18days, 18days... I just have to keep telling myself I can do this.
This morning at breakfast the kids were talking about Halloween, and Jared commented how by Halloween we'll have a baby brother. That small comment made it not seem to far off. In the mean time. my patience is wearing thin, and I'd be lying to myself if I tried to deny it. I think all pregnant women have felt this way. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can (wait do I have a choice?!) lol. 18days, 18 days, 18 days...