Lying to myself

Yesterday, I was super tired. I woke up about 8, made everyone a yummy breakfast-- and then was ready for a nap. My Sweet Jared sent me back to bed. I slept until 11:30. But I woke up, with the 'pregnancy emotions' going on... I think when you know the month you are due finally arrives, you just want to be holding a baby already :). Knowing I have 18days to go (even though I know isn't a long time) is a long way to go for a pregnant lady..... My prego emotions are kind of taking over. It's weird how when you are pregnant, you pray for pain... for pain means the end is in sight. I've been waking up 3 to 4 times a night to go to the bathroom, unlike my other pregnancies where I slept wonderfully. This kid is also quite the accrobat, seriously... I wake up and my insides are sore. I think I have a night owl on my hands;). I'm so grateful for him, but i'm also ready to be holding him in my arms, not carrying him in my belly ;). Seriously, I think he'll be my biggest baby yet, he feels HUGE in there, and I have all kinds of new 'baby tattoos' (stretch marks.. lol.) Sigh... 18days, 18days, 18days... I just have to keep telling myself I can do this.
This morning at breakfast the kids were talking about Halloween, and Jared commented how by Halloween we'll have a baby brother. That small comment made it not seem to far off. In the mean time. my patience is wearing thin, and I'd be lying to myself if I tried to deny it. I think all pregnant women have felt this way. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can (wait do I have a choice?!) lol. 18days, 18 days, 18 days...