Yesterday

Yesterday was my last pregnancy appt. Since Dr. Savage was just getting back from her vacation, I met with the nurse practioner, as the dr's schedule was just WAY too full. I was the same as last week. We are all set up for friday. Can't wait to get the call thursday night of what time I should go into the hospital. Mom arrives tomorrow:) 1/2 day today, full day tomorrow, and 1/2 day friday til I'll be snuggling a new little one. Ahh... it's simply heaven thinking about it. In the mean time, my hospital bag packed ;) and daddy took me to Motherhood Maternity last night to get a few last minute nursing essentials. Life is perfect.

Did you see?

Did you see the baby ticker at the side? Yep, it says 4 days! 4 days people! Ahh... I can't wait to snuggle my precious gift from a heaven. A pure miracle this little guy is. Love him so much already.  In the mean time to keep me busy, Tuesday I have my last ob appt and then taking Lexi to story time. Wednesday, I signed the kiddos up for the halloween party at the library. Thursday, Mom is coming and the furnance is getting a tune up (thank you landlords, seriously we've NEVER had better landlords than the one's we have now) thursday night they'll call us and tell us what time to come up, and friday is the big day! 4 days! 4 days!!

7 days, a week, 7 days

A week, 7 days, or a week.. However you want to put it.. But 7 days from now, I'll be in LABOR and getting ready to hold my sweet baby. I'm slightly a bit nervous as it's been  ALONG time since I've had to wake up in the night (LExi slept through the night at 3 weeks old...yah, I got lucky with her), it's been a good 2 years since I've changed a diaper, and I NEVER carry a diaper bag.. But I'm excited and so grateful for the opportunity to be this little one's mama. So if that means-- waking up at night, changing diapers, and carrying a diaper bag-- sign me up:). In the mean time, I'm still waiting for my 'nesting' phase to kick in... I just find myself enjoying the time with the other 3 and daydreaming about you-- and just how I want my 'birthplan' to go. My last dr's appt is tuesday. Dr. Savage will have JUST gotten back into town, so since her schedule is full-- I'll be meeting with her P.A. Life is good. Life is great. :)

Oh Landon....

By the looks of things I must be getting pretty close to my due date... as Landon was eating breakfast and looked up at me, and said "Mom you are getting as BIG as a HAMBURGER with ALL the toppings. (shakes his head) Yep, Yep, as BIG as a HAMBURGER.... (pause) with all the toppings." He then continues to eat his breakfast.. Oh that kid. He makes me laugh ;). Until next friday, I think I just might be looking at hamburger's differently, knowing they are my twin;). LOL.

False Alarm

5:30 I woke up to go to the bathroom, as I laid back down in bed.. a GUSH. What the? I thought to myself I just went to the bathroom... Jared woke up. We were both sure  my water had broke. But no contractions.. So I decided to go with it, as I had an appt at 9am with Dr. Savage. She listens to baby-- he sounds good, she checks me, and I've progressed to 3cm. She does the test, and it comes back positive. It was indeed amniotic fluid. She sends me straight to the hospital.

I get over there, wait a few minutes and they take me back to the room. 3 different tests were done.. All coming back negative.. By this time it's 11;00ish. WE call Mark and have him take Lexi and head to our house so that someone can be there when Landon gets home. They also do an ultrasound to make sure baby has enough fluid, and he does. Dr. Savage and the nurses, along with JAred, confirm I must have had a forebag this time. A bag, before the 'real bag'. SAdly the 'real bag' didn't break and because all tests came back negative-- there wasn't reason to induce, and we found ourselves checking out of the hospital, and heading home. No baby. False alarm. I'd be lying if I didn't admit I'm crying inside a little-- for just a couple of reasons. I've only EVER been induced and oh-how- I would love to go by myself. But with being the wife of a doctor, it's not easy for him to just get up and leave work (his patients don't like that for some reason?!) so we have always planned inductions. I as so excited at the thought of holding mysweet baby today. It took us so long to get pregnant, then to miscarry, then to get pregnant again.... WE just feel so blessed to have this little one joining our family. And after today, I'm just so nervous that something will go wrong this week. I just worry that something may have been missed. So I will continue to just make sure and be aware of his movements, and pray for this sweet boy. I think I'm going to have J give me a blessing. I feel a little bit 'train-wrecked'.... Anyways if nothing great happens this week. I go in on tuesday for my last appt, and my induction will be the 19th. I pray all goes well these next 11 days....

yesterday's dr. visit

Yesterday I had a dr's appt with Dr. Savage-- everything stayed the same :(. I was hoping I might have progressed more... and she'd say 'let's just induce you today.' But, no :(  Just have to remind myself that  a healthy baby is more important. We'll just let him 'cook' a little longer.  Life is good :)

Lying to myself

Yesterday, I was super tired. I woke up about 8, made everyone a yummy breakfast-- and then was ready for a nap. My Sweet Jared sent me back to bed. I slept until 11:30. But I woke up, with the 'pregnancy emotions' going on... I think when you know the month you are due finally arrives, you just want to be holding a baby already :). Knowing I have 18days to go (even though I know isn't a long time) is a long way to go for a pregnant lady..... My prego emotions are kind of taking over. It's weird how when you are pregnant, you pray for pain... for pain means the end is in sight. I've been waking up 3 to 4 times a night to go to the bathroom, unlike my other pregnancies where I slept wonderfully. This kid is also quite the accrobat, seriously... I wake up and my insides are sore. I think I have a night owl on my hands;). I'm so grateful for him, but i'm also ready to be holding him in my arms, not carrying him in my belly ;). Seriously, I think he'll be my biggest baby yet, he feels HUGE in there, and I have all kinds of new 'baby tattoos' (stretch marks.. lol.) Sigh... 18days, 18days, 18days... I just have to keep telling myself I can do this.
This morning at breakfast the kids were talking about Halloween, and Jared commented how by Halloween we'll have a baby brother. That small comment made it not seem to far off. In the mean time. my patience is wearing thin, and I'd be lying to myself if I tried to deny it. I think all pregnant women have felt this way. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can (wait do I have a choice?!) lol. 18days, 18 days, 18 days...

What's in a name...

We had decided to name you Brigham many months ago. Daddy just like the name, and well I had put a lot of thought into the name. Michael is named after Grandpa Kam, Landon is named after the Grandpa Landon, and I wanted you to have a 'strong, meaningful' name too.
So when we started thinking about names.... I couldn't help but think of the Prophet Brigham Young. The Prophet Joseph Smith had been dead for quite awhile, before it was revealed that Brigham Young would be the next prophet. During that time though, I'm sure members were hoping and praying for the next prophet. Just like you sweet son, we have hoped and prayed for you for quite awhile. Once called to be the next prophet Brigham Young (I can imagine at least) had to have had alot of faith that he could take on such a task. Faith in the lord and faith in himself. He had to be courageous. Both characteristics I hope you possess-- faith in yourself and faith in the lord, as well as courage. I know there is quite a gap between you and your siblings-- but just as the people loved Brigham Young-- know that we love you too. We are ecstatic for you to join our family :) Since I pretty much picked your first name, and thankfully daddy like it. Daddy wanted to pick your hawaiian name.

After weeks of him researching, and writing down different ideas. And really thinking about a name that would fit you. He told me this morning he has decided. When he told me what it was, and what it meant-- it just fit perfectly. However, I'm going to keep it a secret from the blogging world,until you are born. :)  Your brothers have already practiced saying it, they are sure proud of you.

On a funny note, Sweet Aunty let us borrow her playmat and bouncer. I was beyond grateful. :) When Mike first saw it though he was very concerned because it was 'pink' and he just did NOT think his BROTHER should be placed in a pink bouncer. I assured him it was okay. Later that night I was snuggling with daddy and told him how Mike was so concerned about you being in a pink bouncer. Daddy commented he didn't feel good about it either, and told me to go buy one.  He was just as concerned as Michael-- he didn't want his son in a pink bouncer. I laughed out loud, and then reassured daddy it would be JUST fine, and that I would NOT be spending money on a bouncer and that this one would work just fine, regardless of the color. The next morning I woke up and put a soft green blanket over the bouncer... So now when you look at it, all you see is  a nice soft green blanket, no pink. lol.. I think they are both a little happier now. Oh boys :). Just watchin' out for you I guess.. lol.. Love my life.
P.S. Grandma Landon might be coming to visit this week. So if you could make your debut, I wouldn't be upset :) and neither would she. Just sayin'-- this would be a great week to meet you Brigg :) Love you lots son!

I lovingly hate....

I lovingly hate braxton hicks :) If that makes sense....lol. Seriously, the other day I started having TIMED contractions. I thought to myself maybe this is it, they were 5 to 8 mins apart for an hour... then.. well, they... went away :(. I was hoping it was 'go time'. but not quite yet. However it did motivate me to finish up the baby stuff. The portacrib with bassinett insert is up, baby clothes are washed, packs of diapers bought, hospital bag packed :). in all honestly I'm still planning hanging out til the 19th. But at least if 'go time' happens earlier, I'm prepared. (I still secretly hope it's earlier, I've always wanted to go into labor by myself, but a healthy baby is way more important). Life is good. 22 days!!!

36 week appt visit

Today was my 36 week appt visit. The kind where they do the GBS test, which is always fun :(. No thankfully, it's quick and painless. I was also 'checked' which I don't ever remember being checked this early. But I was 2cm and 70% effaced. So things are starting to head in the right direction. I'm not going to hold my breath though. AFter being 4cm with Landon for two weeks..... I'm not planning on anything anytime soon. But if it happens, I'm okay with it :). For now though, just enjoying the day to day stuff. Bought some Dreft today to get all of Briggs clothes washed. Life is good. Love my family, love my husband, love the idea of holding my baby in 25 days or less :)

Fortune

Today's fortune on facebook read "Your energy will soon return and you will get things done." YAY! :) Amazingly it was true! I woke up this morning, and I was FINALLY better! Like I actually felt like eating, and doing something! Thankfully though today is Brigham City Temple Dedication so I have one more day to still keep myself away from others 'just in case'. But overall so much better. Here's to healthy eating (as I lost nearly 10lbs last week) and helping my sweet Brigg plump up before his big debut :)!

Hard...

It's often times harder to get feeling better when you are pregnant.. This time is definetly the case.. I've had this yucky stomach bug since last tuesday and it's still going strong.. I finally have started some dissolvable zofran, sadly the first time I took it though I was too dehydrated and it wouldn't even dissolve, so I ended up just putting a tiny water in my mouth and swallowing it down. Thankfully I have moments where I do feel okay. But the energy level is just in the 'negative zone'. My sweet husband has been doing all he can to make me comfortable-- letting me sleep in, letting me take naps, and picking up drugs to try and get things to help the situtation.
The Park City retreat was fun-- Jared was very patient with me, and just let me stay in the hotel while he took the kids swimming and/or out and about. It was relaxing to not worry about house work, chores, the cares of life. But just to sit and watch tv, relax on the bed. I was determined to feel good enough to go shopping, after all the Park City outlets are the BEST! My goal was to go to 3 stores (knowing me this is a very lame number.. I love to shop!) AT carters I wanted to get Briggs  a few new outfits, and a 'take home from the hospital' outfit. I found 3 really great ones. Some warm jammies, 1 outfit, and 1 outfit with a jacket. I also grabbed Lexi lou a new shirt as she accidently fell in  a mud puddle, and I somehow didn't pack her an extra shirt (the boys on the other hand had 2 extra shirts each)... WE also went to oldnavy and found Jared some pants, and mikey a zipuphoody.
Then I was beat, I was ready to sit in the stroller. lol. .. I couldn't do it anymore. So Jared ran into the Columbia store, while I stayed with the kids in the car watching a movie and enjoying the AC. He sent me a text asking me to come look at a coat with him. WE have looked EVERY winter season since we were married to try and find him a coat he loved, so I was SUPER happy for him when he found one he liked. After looking on the racks for a bit, I found a different one, and he liked it even more-- plus it was on sale-- plus his work was going to pay for it! DOUBLE AWESOME! We quickly bought the coat and headed back to the hotel. I find such great comfort in the many kicks, moves, and somersaults Brigg has been doing. So I know he is still growing and doing great, despite me being under-the-weather. I go into Dr. Sage on Monday, and from here on out we are down to weekly appts. 27 days until induction time! Can hardly wait. It's been a long road full of patience on our part, but we are excited for great event of his arrival :) Love you sweet son!

going on 48...

I'm going on 48 hours and still not over this silly stomach bug... We are suppose to be leaving for Jared's work retreat to Park City at 4 today... It is taking everything within me to pack, and get the house ready. I seriously feel like I might kill over. Ugh... Stomach bug, why now? Why come while I am suppose to be getting ready for a nice paid-for-by-someone-else vacation... Here's to hoping it completley goes away soon, and energy returns.... I can always wish right? Oh and while I'm in park city, I'm hoping to find the perfect 'bring Brigham home in' outfit. :)

sick....

Mom's should be exempt from getting sick... especially pregnant moms...AFter all we go through this for 12 weeks at the beginning right?! Fever, chills, vomitting, extreme tiredness... This too shall pass right? Ugh... WE are suppose to be going on family vacation tomorrow to Park City for Jared's work retreat. Here's to hoping and praying I feel better. I've already lost 5lbs due to the sickness. Thankfully little Brig is still moving. So hopefully he's getting the nutrients he still needs. I took a zofran this morning, hoping it kicks in soon. :(

excited

I get more and more excited with each passing day. Hoping this month just fly's by! I can't wait to meet you sweet son.

getting things ready

5 weeks, 5 short weeks(anything earlier is just an added bonus!)! I can hardly believe it! Today I got out some of the baby stuff that I wanted to wash and clean up, plus trying to figure out what I still need to buy.... like a dresser for your sweet little baby clothes, some accessories for my medela (after 4 years, I figure I better buy some new ones, they were looking kind of old).
I have already purchased baby wash, lotion,nuk's, diaperbag, jj cole, diapers, a box of wipes, and some other stuff.
I'm trying to decide if i need a boppy, a bouncer, and a play mat. I think I'll check kid-to-kid on those items. I've never used a boppy and would really like to try it, but they are so expensive that if I hate it I'm afraid it will be a waste. So maybe I'll just use a pillow like I did the other 3. We'll see :). Just makes me excited starting to see things getting ready. Keep growing little one. Love you much! Mom

ultrasound and 34 week visit

On saturday after the football game daddy took me into his office and did an ultrasound so Grandma Landon could see you. Your sweet little hands were tucked up along your face, and you would punch the ultrasound probe. The blood was flowing perfectly through the umbilical cord. It was placed perfect over the top of your boy part-- being modest infront of grandma, I guess ;). And the ultrasound showed other good news, you are back to head down! :) Little Brig this made mommy so happy. Thankyou sweet son.

Today I had my 34 week check up. Measuring right on track, and heart beating perfectly. I asked Dr. Savage her thoughts on being induced, she said she'd do it at 39 weeks. Which is the 15th of October. I really wanted it done on Friday the 19, so daddy could be with me that day, have the weekend with us, and then take the next week off to be all together for a week. She agreed, and told me to plan on the 19! So sweet son, if you don't come before Oct 19, you will be on that day! I'm so excited, and so grateful she was willing to do this. Daddy's schedule has been super busy. But, to know he'll be able to spend a full week with us makes mommy, oh-so happy. I know it makes daddy happy to, that he'll be able to be around that first week to help me snuggle you to death :). As a side note, we will now have brigg on the 19, Landon was born on the 20, Lexi was born on the 21, and Mike was born on the 22. :) Kind of fun!

Will u or won't you

I'm beginning to worry won't turn again. I'm hoping you will though. In the mean time, I can't help but laugh (and it hurts a little... okay more like very uncomfortable) watching you kick my right side out. It's so funny to see my side getting stretched out, instead of the normal at the top by my lungs. You still continue to get the hiccups daily, infact yesterday you had them twice. IT will be fun to see if you get them that much once you are born. I'm still doing every thing I can to try and get you turn. Crossing my fingers it happens soon. Also, I was warned braxton hicks start earlier with each child. The other night you gave me quite a scare, and I almost thought I was in labor. But, thankfully just the braxton hicks. Strong and painful those little things are ;). Love you lots sweet son. Here's to 6.5 more weeks, or less I'm okay with that too :)... WAit who am I kidding? I've only ever been induced at 40 weeks. But a girl can dream, and maybe her son will cooperate right?! Love you Brigg!

Hiccups

My sweet Briggs, as I lay here feeling you move, I'm smiling. The rhythmic pattern takes over...the hiccups:) you get them everyday! Not even exaggerating. Yesterday you got the hiccups right after church, daddy placed his hand on my belly and could feel you just a hiccuping away. Sweet boy, I sure hope and pray you are growing healthy and putting on the pounds.:) I'll be honest mommy is getting extremely ready to no longer be pregnant. I'm feeling overdone, even though I know these last few weeks are essential, so I'll put on my happy face and make it through. With your brothers and sister I never got to the point where I couldn't breathe, feeling crummy all the time, feeling stretched to the max(seriously my guess is you'll be way bigger than them), and just feeling done...you've managed to help me feel all of those..lol. But oh how grateful I am to be your momma. So glad you were able to come to our home. Your car seat and bundle me have been out together for weeks. I've been thinking about putting up the ports crib with the bassinet insert and washing your clothes...maybe this week:) I'm just so excited. 5to 7 weeks. Probably 7 knowing my past history, as I've always been induced at 40weeks. Daddy and I talked about my birth plan last night. It made me a little nervous but overall excited.  My appts are down to every other week. So this week no appt, but one next. Love you sweet son! Keep growing right on track :) and know mommy loves you.

32 weeks

Well, my sweet little son Briggs-- changed his mind... Yep, he decided to turn back :(. Guess he just wasn't comfortable enough being head down, so he turned back to transverse. Back to mommy excercises to try and get him to turn again, so that mommy's comfortable :).  In the mean time, I just hope he continues to grow healthy and normally.

On monday I had my Dr. Appt-- once again measuring right on track, and heart beat per minutes of 140. Love hearing that sweet thump, thump, thump. I talked to her about a few concerns I had, and she just kind of brushed them off. I guess it really wasn't an issue-- or because I'm married to an FP she was annoyed I was asking... thinking he should be answering them. And well, honestly when asking the questions I knew the answers, because I had talked to daddy. BUT, I'm paying HER, and I just wanted some of my concerns noted... OH, well. All that truly matters is a healthy baby in the next two months right :).

I bought my first package of newborn diapers, and couldn't help but open it just to see how small they were. Aunt Julie was SO nice and gave us TONS of size 1 diapers, so I figure for now, we'll just start with the one pack of newborn, and see how big you are. See if you go straight to size 1, or need more newborn. A few clothes are hanging in your closet, waiting to be worn. Carseat all put together, and stroller is ready to roll. I think we are pretty much set-- oh and LOTS of handsantizer has been purchased :).

So for now, no big rush, just enjoying your 'side-kicks' ;) Love you sweet son. Enjoy your last few weeks in heaven, visiting and sitting and loving on those we both love. Then when you come to earth, please tell me about it through your sweet innocent pure eyes. I truly feel you are, momma's miracle :)

Thursday night

Last Thursday night I was doing some of the things I had read about on the internet to try and get him to turn...sitting on my excercises ball doing hip excercises, then laying ith my hips up, then laying on my right side(head on the left) with a pillow between my legs when I felt this HUGE movement...he turned I told Jared... I felt and sure enough Jared thought he finally turned too. So Friday I went into Jared's work and he confirmed it via ultrasound...Brigham is finally head down! Now hre's to hoping the next few weeks he stays that way:)

Desperate...

I'm starting to feel desperate...desperately wanting you to turn. I've always been one to not really complain about being pregnant, I never got super uncomfortable. This time though...I can't even imagine being pregnant 8 more weeks. I think most of it has to do with carrying you transverse. It is so uncomfortable being stretched side to side...lout the end result will be so worth it. In hopes to get you to switch positions I've been sitting on the excercises ball, and am going to go into dr. Mcclane for some adjustments, just to make sure everything is aligned for optimial turng positions, i've also read other stuff on the Internet I might try. As I've had a few near melt down moments from being uncomfortable plus prego hormones.lol.

On an exciting happy note, I got your new stroller today. I purchased the Britax Chaperone stroller in grey/black. Your brothers were sure you would NOT be riding in a brown/pink stroller that Lexi used. I would say they are watching out for you already. Landon, Mike, and Lexi are constantly telling you how much they love you. Today Mke said he just can't wait to meet you and push you around in the stroller. We all love you so much and are so excited you came to our family. Love you sweet Briggs!

29 weeks

Yesterday was my second time meeting with Dr. Savage-- 29weeks:). I can hardly believe it. You are growing right on track, heart beating perfectly, and just as perfect as can be. WE are still patiently waiting for you to turn into position, as you are still loving your 'transverse' way of laying. It's getting a bit more uncomfortable for you to be that way, but it will all work out. Dr. Savage told me not to stress until you are 36 or 37 weeks. And then if you don't, she has some ways that we can try and turn you. Oh sweet Brigg,  mommy loves you, sweet son! 11 more weeks til I can snuggle and kiss your sweet cheeks to death. Love you baby boy!

Ultrasound take 2

Today was the follow up ultrasound for your choroid plexus cyst and.......it's gone! Yay! Everything else checked out perfect! You are currently measuring 2.5lbs, and already have hair, well grandpa hair.:) hair on the bottom part of your head, not the top. Sweet Brigham, I was so excited to hear this good news. The kids and I celebrated by going to toys r us. I looked at the baby stuff and dreamt of your arrival. You are still carrying transverse, so a csection is still the plan. I'm not going to lie, I dreamt of another natural delivery, but as long as you are healthy, I am happy with however you get here.:) I love you sweet son. I look forward to seeing your sweet face in 13 to 14 weeks. Oh and kissing your chub cheeks, snuggling you, and just being your mama. Love you sweet b-man:)

25 weeks

I can hardly believe I'm 25 weeks. Such  a good part of pregnancy, not too big but can feel all those wonderful baby kicks :). Last friday we met with my new family medicine doctor who will be delivering you. Her name is Dr. Shelly Savage, she came as a recommendation from Dr. Ann Hutchinson (one of Dad's attendings from McKay-Dee). Ann was in residency with her. She does lots of ob and is located only about two blocks from dad's new Sports Clinic. I'm not going to lie I miss Circle of Life where I was so lucky to be able to have an ultrasound every time, and to see you growing and developing.

I go back in in a few weeks for a followup ultrasound from Circle of Life. While doing our big ultrasound they found a Choroid Plexus Cyst. So we are just going to make sure it has gone away. Thankfully it's in a part of the brain that doesn't affect personality, growth or development. They had to do a throughough ultrasound though at COL to make sure there weren't any other abnormalities as a Choroid Cyst is often times a  soft marker for Trisomy 18 or Trisomy 23. Thankfully you had no other abnormalities, so Dr. Alejo and the technician, and your dr. daddy are all very confident you are healthy :). This brings me peace. I'm not going to lie and say I was worried sick for days after. I cried a little. Hence why I'm just now writing this. But, I do feel at peace. I know you will be just fine, and no matter what you are my baby, my baby boy, my baby Brigham. Love you sweet one. Love you so much! Can't wait to see you via ultrasound again. 15 more weeks to go!

Kicking, kicking, kicking

Today you were crazy kicking..I quickly called over your brothers so they could feel..and you stopped. Miley patiently hung around and before to long you gave him to good kicks. He was so excited to be able to feel you kicking him. Lexi felt you kick last Saturday. Friday we packed up and cleaned our Ogden house,and since we couldn't move into our springville house until Saturday, we stayed in a motel. Lexi was laying in bed next to me Saturday morning and she felt you kicking then. So now we just need to let Landon feel. :) we are all so excited for you to join our family. I think wbout you constantly and continue to pray that you are growing healthy and strong. I love you sweet Briggs!

Busy

Life has been so busy lately! We have been busy packing and getting ready to move on Friday! I pray you are doing well amidst all of my stress. Please continue to grow healthy and strong. Love you sweet one!

Kicking daddy

Yesterday for the first time daddy felt you move. We woke up and you were just a kicking:) probably telling me you were hungry and to get up and eat something. Also, the family went to lagoon yesterday and Michael told you he loved you as we stood in line for the ferris wheel. Our whole family is so excited to have you join us. Today. Go for our big ultrasound just to make sure everything looks nice and healthy. I pray daily that you're growing healthy, strong, and normally. Love you Brigham:)

20 weeks!

We made it half way! I am beyond thrilled! Only20 weeks more! Today was my last appt. with Dr.alejo before we move to Provo. There I'll be seeing Shelly Savsge a family practitioner, which will be nice, all the kids can see her, she can deliver me, and continue to care for you. I am also just excited to support family medicine:). Today at your appt, it was reconfirmed that you are indeed a boy. Not just any boy, but my sweet baby boy named...Brigham. Named you after our 2nd prophet Brigham Young. There was a lot of time in between him and the prophet Joseph, and when he was called he had to be very brave, very courageous, and he had some big shoes to fill. This is what I hope for you, a strong righteous brave and courageous man. I love you sweet Brig! Can't wait to snuggle you in my arms. Today's ultrasound showed you are breech, but we have plenty of time for that to change, as I plan for another natural delivery. (so let's cooperate ok, brig?!) our big targeted ultrasound is the 14th, here they really check you out head to toe. I'm excited for that, I just pray daily you are growing healthy and normally. This last weekend Grandma Landon and I spent time making blankets and burps cloths for your arrival. We ended up getting 4 blankets and 10 burp cloths done. :) I've purchased a few clothes from kid to kid, but thankfully apAunt Julie is willing to let me borrow her boy clothes, and my dear friend Andrea is mailing me back some clothes I lent her from mike and Landon. Can't wait to see what you look like..like mike? Landon? Or your own special look? Either way I already love you to the moon and back sweet Brigham!

I started feeling your sweet kicks this week. There were times before this week, where I wondered...but this week I've felt them for sure. I begged daddy to take me into porter clinic to see you, and he did. I love seeing your sweet heart beat, I loved seeing your arms, legs, head, and spine. Perfect little angel. Can barely wait for our big ultrasound in a few weeks. Oh how I love you. I can barely wait the next 22 weeks til I get to meet you, hold you, snuggle you, kiss you. I know your siblings feel the same way. We all love you! This week I bought you a camo pacifier clip, and a basketball and football pacifiers. They are the cutest! Oh sweet little boy, mommy loves you! Keep growing healthy and strong!

Little trickster.

What a little trickster...today you were sure to make it known that you are no girl! You are truly a boy, and there is no mistaking it! Lexi was a little sad...okay, really sad, but we are elated that you are healthy and growing. You measures 16w5d today:) so about 5 days ahead. He said you weigh 5 ounces. All I know, is I'm head over heels for you. Love you to the moon and back sweet one.:) !now to come up with a name!

Family home evening activity

Tonight after family home evening, we went over to the porter clinic and daddy did an ultrasound to see if we could 'see' anything....and we a pretty sure we saw 3 lines...meaning another GIRL is headed to our house! We are so happy and Lexi is beyond thrilled to have a sister! My eyes get a little watery just thinking about seeing your sweet little arms, legs, adorable face, and sweet little heart beat. So grateful for you, oh so grateful for you!

April visit

We took the kids in to see you today, you wiggled and moved and it was just so beautiful! Mike was really good at being able to see your hands, feet, head and stomach. I thought for a second I saw a boy part. The doctor thought it was just the umbilical cord. Either way it was beautiful listening to your heart best and just seeing you wiggle around. I love you sweet baby.

..we also retested my thyroid to make sure the medication was working, here's to hoping all is going well. They said they'd call if things needed to be changed. :) so no news for now, is good news:)

Last night the easter bunny came... Bright and early about 6:00am, Landon comes running in our room, "The easter bunny brought me a bottle and I don't know why?" He sounded very disgusted.... Daddy and I quickly got out of bed and then grabbed my Ipad, the filming began, as each child had a baby thing in their basket. They played the guessing game for awhile.. Until they figured it all out. Such a fun and perfect morning. How I love my 4 babies :)!


Love the sleepy eyes... Lexi and her baby toy for you

Landon pretending to drink the bottle :)

Mike was pretty sure he wanted these-- we informed him they were for you, to hang your toys from the carrier.

The family and their loot of baby stuff.


And here you are at 10 weeks, I'm excited to see you again tomorrow. Love you sweeet one! P.S. Mike and Lexi want a girl. Landon is SURE he wants a boy :)

telling...

We tell the kids about you tomorrow. I'm excitedly nervous. I then have an OB appt on monday so they'll be able to see you for the first time. I want to have faith. I can start to tell that you are growing as my lower abdomen is starting to grow ;), oh and i wake up at least 1 if not 2 times a night to go to the restroom cause my bladder is full. I love you sweet one. Please continue to grow healthy, strong, and normally.
Love your mom :)

Appt

The ten week appt..I was beyond nervous. Daddy took off work and came with me. I was grateful he was there. Dr.alejo got right to business and went straight for an ultrasound. I saw your heart Beijing instantly. He measured to see how quick it was beating169bpm. Joy, pure joy! That means according to old wives takes, it's a girl. I'm still banking on a boy, baby boy brigham :). We'll see though. I'm just so glad that you are growing and right on track. Next appt two weeks. Because we get an ultrasound every time, some of my friends have found out if it's a boy or girl at their twelve week appt. that would be super cool. But I'm not banking on it, would be cool though, since I have so much to buy and prepare for. Clothes, toys, bathe, Carseat sleeping bag, and just other random stuff. I'm so excited! So grateful, so blessed:)!

Thinking

Thinking of you today sweet one. I love you so much. I hope and pray that as I go in tomorrow to see dr.alejo that I will see your sweet heart beating, that you will be growing and developing normally. I look forward to the joy you will bring to our home. Love you sweet one. Love you!

Yesterday I was hit by a ton of bricks, lots of pregnancy symptoms..aka trips to the 'John' to barf. Today much better. I'm kind of liking the some days sick some days not. Gives me a chance to feel normal in between sick days:)8

Update

The spotting has finally subsided, thank goodness:)!i' more tired than ever...seriously i sleep a good 10 hours wake up and attempt to do things (still draggy with low energy) til lunch. Put on movie for Landon andnlexi and then relax for a good two hours so I can try and finish out the rest of the day. Usually right after I put the kids to bed, I zonk out on the couch for awhile then daddy wakes me up to help me go upstairs to bed. Being tired though are just good signs that a placenta and baby are growing:) love you sweet one:)!

Please..

Lord, please help me....all I want is a sweet healthy baby. Today I spotted a disturbing amount, and I'm super cramps. My heart is troubled and scared. Please help calm my fears and bring me the strength to be able to accomplish the task at hand. With your help I know I can do all things.

Phone calL

Got a follow up phone call regarding my blood labs. Looks like my thyroid isn't working super great...so medication it is, for the full 9 months. I feel like human medicine cabinet each morning..zofran so I don't throw up, prenatal for us, docolace to make sure things keep moving,Thryoid meds, and perimetrium for the spotting I have had...whew....doing everything I can to make sure you get here safe and sound. Love u sweet angel. In the mean time, lord please help me to have faith that you'll be safely wrapped in my arms in 7 months, perfect and whole. Love you so much baby of mine.

Boys names of the day...brigham or Hudson. Girl names Brooklyn or Aaliyah(calling her Ali)

1st dr's visit

Today was our first official dr.'s visit with Dr. Alejo. It went well. We saw your sweet heartbeat, he changed our due date from Oct 26, to Oct 22. He did a little spot of concern so I have to really take it easy the next two weeks. No excercise, heavy lifting, and no 'love' with dad..hehehe.. anyways, things with you look good. He said now that we have seen a heartbeat a chance for miscarriage is 2 to 3%. So that was comforting. I have to continue taking my pregestrone pills. I also had all my lab work done. So for now, we are good for another 2 weeks :). YAY! love you sweet one.

Heartbeat...

Daddy and I went in today and daddy did another ultrasound. We saw your heartbeat again. It felt so good to see it just beating away. I feel myself still being cautious...and nervous. But I know I. Need to continue to have faith, and be hopeful. I want you to be apart of our family so bad! I continue to pray for peace, and the love of my saviour. 6more weeks and then we'll be in safe zone:). Love you sweet one!

Slammed..

I spoke too soon. I've been hit by the all day prego symptoms. So glad Jared was home today...I have felt beyond awful...which is good right?:/

Proof

Although this was taken weeks ago, just had to post this exciting picture :). It seems to have taken forever since we finally were able to see these double lines, but we are esctatic to finally have seen them. :)

The past few days

The past few days my body has started to get into it's pregnancy rhythm. So far unlike any of my other pregnancys, for example...being prego with Mike I carried around a barf bucket everywhere! On a trip from Logan to SLC I threw up 10 times....we had to stop in the 1hr drive just so I could empty my bucket. It was awful.... Being pregnant ith Landon I was hardly sick, but then again I napped each time mike did as he was just 8 months old when we found out we were pregnant. Lexi's I was dog sick until 13 weeks, and then it was if I magically felt better. This time, I am sick in the mornings, feel ok from10to 4ish, with a good 'resting time' somewhere in there. I make Landon and Lexi lay down so I can too, as I get exhausted very qckly. Once 4ish time hits, I'm back to being so exhausted, barely keeping my eyes open and barfing again. It's nice to have the mid day break from the barfs....but I'm jut exhausted all day...and the house shows that. Yesterday I took all I had just to clean the living room and lexis room. I straightened the kitchen, and daddy helped with dishes. All around though, I'll take it...it will be all so worth it come october. And being able to hold you. Every now and then I find myself holding my breathe, and just patiently wanting to get out of first trimester as soon as I can. I can't wait to get to the safe zone...I love you sweet one.

Well

I woke up this morning feeling more 'well' than yesterday, and my hope a little more deflated.....in fact I wasn't sick at all. This is so unlike my other pregnancy's. I'm very unsure what to think. I find the walls of protecting my feelings, going up. I'm sad...

After typing the above paragraph at 2:16am. Yes I said 2:16am....daddy gave me a blessing this morning, It reminded me to have faith, and be comforted.

At 9am daddy calls and asked if I'd like an ultrasound, just one of the perks of being married to a doctor. :) I said I did. I rearranged my morning. He first did an stomach ultrasound. No sign of anything. So then he did the 'inside' ultrasound. We found you! We saw your little heart beating. I felt at ease. I felt grateful, I felt blessed. It was so wonderful to see your little heart. Dad had to get right back to work. Landn and I hit up the hospital cafe for a breakfast sandwich, since I had thrown up the food I tried to eat earlier. The sandwich tasted so good, and of course I had some minute maid OJ. Love that stuff these days. Daddy then sent me a happy face text, later we went to lunch together. Man, how I'm lovin potatoes these days, went to Wendy's and had a baked potato. Fries don't sound good to me though, which is weird I normally love love love them. But they just don't look good to me these days, baked or mashed though--they put a smile on my face. I love looking at your sweet pic. See you again on the 17th. Until then, may I have faith and continued comfort, as we embark on this new pregnancy journey:)

Hopeful but realistic

I'm trying so hard to be hopeful, yet realistic at the same time....Sunday morning I started spotting...yesterday night it was a nerve-wrecking amount...Jared called Dr. Alejo to see what he thought, they together decided to start me on some progesterone, to see if that helps sustain the baby and stop my bleeding. It's usually taken by those who have repetitive miscarriages, and it is taken as soon as they ovulate....we decided it wouldn't hurt, and only help. I'm trying to be hopeful, but I find myself with water eyes here and there. I bought another pregnancy test today and took it. It was a quick positive, so at least my hcg levels are still high. ... I read my scriptures this morning, looking for comfort. We read them as a family at nights, but just needed a little extra peace and comfort this morning. While at Walmart today I scanned the baby section. Thinking about which pacifiers and bottles and toys and diaper bags I might want to buy. Just too nervous to actually by anything though. Maybe when first trimester is over I'll feel more at ease. Until then I'm just really trying to be hopeful but realistic.

Cravings

Let the CRAVINGS begin!!!!! I can not even begin to explain these weird cravings...today, applesauce and fried chicken. More often than not though, I crave minute maid (yes has to be minute maid) orange juice and pizza. Thankfully my cute hubby fell into my weird fried chicken craving and is at the store as we speak. Boy, oh, boy do I love that man!:)

Dr's appt

I made my first dr's appt today. I'll go in on march 14. It's a Wednesday. :) Lexi Lou will be at preschool, I'm going to find a babysitter for Landon..and just daddy and I are going to go. I hope and pray you are developing correctly and the day we go in you will show us your beautiful beating heart. My heart longs to see your heart beating...to have you join our family. :) I'll admit, I'm nervous, and a liTtle scared. Fear of being heart broken again... Love you sweet one. Today I wasn't nauseated at all. Which is a good thing?! I was able to be a fully functioning mom for your brothers and sisters. Love you sweet baby!

So excited

The first waves of nausea have hit. But it's just a sweet reminder you are growing. Daddy and i talked last night how we are just so excited to be pregnant with you. We love you so much. WE pray and hope for the best. :) Love you sweet one.

I cried a lot the day you were due. Daddy was so sweet and brought me home flowers. I bauled some more. Please know I love you and hope someday you can be apart of our family if it's part of heavenly father's plan. Love you angel.

On a different note, we are excited to begin a new chapter. I woke up during the night and randomly decided to take a pregnancy test... My period is not due for a few days. So I don't know why I thought I should, plus it was 3 in the morning...lol. But the result was two lines. We are expecting!!! I waited til morning to tell daddy. I said I had to go potty, and came back to in the room and showed him the test. We are beyond thrilled. Definitely a secret between just mommy and daddy for awhile. I thought about waiting til valentine's day to tell him but I was just too excited to contain it all. Daddy is now at work, but he just sent me a text it said 'I'm just so happy' we love you sweet one. Now to prepare for exhaustion, puking, big prenatals and 'plug-ups' I can do this! Lol:)