Hopeful but realistic

I'm trying so hard to be hopeful, yet realistic at the same time....Sunday morning I started spotting...yesterday night it was a nerve-wrecking amount...Jared called Dr. Alejo to see what he thought, they together decided to start me on some progesterone, to see if that helps sustain the baby and stop my bleeding. It's usually taken by those who have repetitive miscarriages, and it is taken as soon as they ovulate....we decided it wouldn't hurt, and only help. I'm trying to be hopeful, but I find myself with water eyes here and there. I bought another pregnancy test today and took it. It was a quick positive, so at least my hcg levels are still high. ... I read my scriptures this morning, looking for comfort. We read them as a family at nights, but just needed a little extra peace and comfort this morning. While at Walmart today I scanned the baby section. Thinking about which pacifiers and bottles and toys and diaper bags I might want to buy. Just too nervous to actually by anything though. Maybe when first trimester is over I'll feel more at ease. Until then I'm just really trying to be hopeful but realistic.